Well, it’s been a looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong time.
I think it has been around 3 months since i last wrote and well you may ask, what inspired me to write today?
Well today, I was stopped and asked by a (certain) someone if I was a”twilight fan”? It seemed like the most normal question, and by looking at this “blog” or update thingamagingy you would definetley say: YES!
But for some reason I haltered. I didn’t know what to say? Am i still i twilight fan?
The truth is yes, I am a fan of the BOOKS. But I am just well, to put it midly JUST FREAKING TIRED OF ALL OF THE CRAZY ASS “EDWARD IS SO GOOD LOOKING” AND THE “OMG, TWILIGHT IS LIKE MY MOST FAVOURITE BOOK EVAH FANS!( ok that was overreacting, but you catch my FLOW)
It’s become so freaging MAINSTREAM. It was so exciting before when the fans here were far and wide and when you actually found one ( fan ) you would bond and talk as if you had been friends for an eternity. But now, it’s FREAKING everywhere! I am just so SICK and tired of watching videos of fans just SCREAMING nonstop at the actors and so on. I mean, if it were me I would probably scream a bit too if i had met them, but I wouldn’t be screaming through and ENTIRE interview for no REASON!
“They” have ruined it for me. I just decided to stop updating and so on, because well after the movie came out EVERYONE knew about it and i didn’t even have to read the updates anymore because I HEARD about it from other friends. And I KNOW it’s contradicting when I say that “the fans have ruined it for me” since I am a fan, but yeah……i don’t know…..I am just retarded and wacked in the head. Forgive me.
It has come to the point that I am in fact a bit embaressed to be a twilight fan, because as soon as you say that, you are sort of put into this “box” for one of those romance suckers. And HEY I am not denying that I am not a sucker for romance, but I am a normal but REALLY shy girl. I like things NORMAL, I don’t need this BIG halabaloo of chocolates and hearts, just a walk in the park is good for me. Because i sort of have it IN MY HEAD that as soon as you say: ” I am a twilight fan” it means…..: “Hey! I am a crazyass girl who is obsessed with robert pattinson and Edward cullen, and I want my LOVE to be big and grand and well……..CHEESY ” sort of.
And I am not denying that I wasn’t like that before. But I can happily say that that period of my life is over ( THANK GOD!). I have opened my eyes to see the real guys that are available who are attractive around me and not just the celebrities out there ( who i will never meet ps: I am off the “love” robert pattinson “love train”. I know, the dude has a great personality, but that doesn’t cut it anymore XP don’t hate me… ) and it’s not about the guys in the book, or how HUNKY the actors look, but about the STORY. The story and the way it was written that captivates me.
So am I a fan?Yes, I am a fan…..but I can safely say that the updates are NEVER going to be as LONG as they have been before. THAT was a tinsy WINSY bit over the top. ( understood that today , when i met people who said that they were so long they didn’t even BOTHER to read them! TT.TT *cries* all my hard research for no REASON! ) and they are not going to come as often as they may have used to. They may not even BE about twilight, they may just be about me………………HAHAHAHA! as if I have a LIFE! *tears in eyes from laughing*. No but if something happens I will update. But I feel like having a blog is like PUTTING yourself out there. And i don’t have the confidence, really. That’s why I would probably be more comfortable with a privat blog, THAT no one knows about.
Peace out
Lutten
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Sannheten. Og sånn vil det alltid være. ;)
*comfort-hug for Lutten*
And T., the pic, s’not working.
FANKEN jeg irriterer meg grenseløst jeg også! (er vi egoistiske nå? CIP)
Nei, bare elitister. :>
I know exactly what you mean. I’ve become so tired of the huge Twilight-fuzz that has been going on lately. I too, would still say that I’m a Twilight fan, but not THAT sort of fan that hangs Twilight posters all over the four walls of her room, and who makes a YouTube video which only content seem to be screaming and yelling about how FANTASTICALLY HOT Edward Cullen (Rob) is, and how much they LOOOOOOOVE TWILIGHT and so on and so on. I would safely say there’s at least two sort of fan-groups out there. I don’t like being automatically associated with that type sort of fan either. It’s both embarrassing and lame.
I feel you. Although I was never the screaming “I-would-rip-my-heart-out-for-Edward-and-totally-let-him-drink-my-blood-OMG-I-LOOVE-TWILIGHT!!” fan, I really enjoyed the books. I couldn’t wait to read the rest and I adored a lot of the characters. Still, even while reading it it didn’t strike me as the most wonderful book in existence, nor was I overly impressed by Meyer’s writing. (Two words: MARBLE. DAVID.) I personally prefer Philip Pullman’s.
But again – that is not to say I didn’t really enjoy the books! :)
Still, I would not want to be put in the same “box” as all the rabid screaming 14 year old fans out there. Sorry, but no. I do squeal at things like every other fangirl does, but I like to think I’m able to keep my head where it belongs…
(If I saw Jeremy Irons, Alan Rickman or some of my other favourite actors, though, I couldn’t guarantee there would be no screaming. But I’d probably get tongue-tied instead, haha!)
I haven’t seen the movie yet, though. (Japan :P)