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Oh to miss someone this much…

Wednesday, March 10th, 2010 by Kiyu

I miss him so terribly much.

Every now and then, I just miss him so much. It’s only natural, so I never make a fuss about it. ‘Cause you know, it’s normal to be upset after a break-up. It’s normal to miss…

However, this time it was particularly bad. First, it was just this cruel hollow feeling, this empty void. It was soon followed by the usual pattern where the longing kicks in and I just feel so terribly terribly sad. Then it feels like I can’t ever be happy again unless I can feel his strong arms wrapping around me and pulling me close to him like before, smoothing my hair back and whispering soothing words to me. Of course I know it’s not true, but in those painful moments when I just miss him so terribly much, this is how it feels like.

But this time around there was a new addition to the usual pattern; I was… sobbing. The other times I cried, it was only because he hurt me in some kind of way. Either by things he said or just the hopeless situation itself. And if you know me personally, you’ll know that I’m not particularly prone to crying in the first place… But this time… it was just because I missed him so much…

I started sobbing just like that, out of the blue, just because I missed him so…

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Tenderness.

Wednesday, March 3rd, 2010 by Kiyu

My heart skipped a beat when I saw him walking into the hall. For a split second I stopped in my tracks, freezing completely, before resuming my business with the arrows, pretending like everything was normal. But in truth, my heart was hammering feverishly in my chest and I never relaxed. He was so beautiful. Tall and lean, his hair newly cut in a rebellious manner. It was longer than I remembered it. With slow and powerful strides he strolled towards his best mate whom I just happen to be standing not too far away from. The joy on his face, even the way his eyes were smiling when his friends were jokingly fighting with him, was so wonderful it was all I could do not to melt right there and then. Gazing at him, my lips curled into a smile I couldn’t fight. And I knew, that if anyone had been looking at me at that moment, they would have seen the warmth in my smile. They would have seen that this smile contained a fondness so tender it would have felt utterly wrong to snap me out of the enchantment.

He did not speak to me. Nor did he look at me as far as I know. Not that I tried either, out of fear.

He knew I was going to be there today. Why did he risk getting even more angry with me by coming? I knew the sight of me might tick him off again. But … it made me incredibly happy that he came. I could see him again, let my eyes rest on his face again, remind myself of why I fell so deeply in love with him that I can never be angry with him — even after being left with a shattered heart. It just felt so nice to see him again.

…and he was gorgeous. If he walks into me again in the future, you can bet I will be more than happy to see him. More than happy. I still care for him tenderly, and probably will for quite a long time. I can now believe it when people say; “As long as he’s happy, I’m happy.”

If I am able to smile and feel this soothing warmth when I see him happy and laughing, then yes, I think I will be happy if he is happy.

Tags: emotions, feelings, tenderness
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UEA Archery

Wednesday, February 24th, 2010 by Kiyu

Thanks Hui, for taking these photos!

Tags: archery, club, sports, UEA
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Jan’s 21st

Tuesday, February 2nd, 2010 by Kiyu

Stole the photo from Terence because I didn’t bring my own camera. Jan’s birthday dinner, which was great! I’ll write later, I’ll also tell you about how I pretended to be a forensic scientist in labs a week ago — you know, like in shows like CSI and The Mentalist?

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Physiology…

Friday, November 13th, 2009 by Kiyu

Drained. Physiology and pharmacology is taking a toll on me. This is how frustrated I am.

Course test in about 11 hours counts 20% towards final mark. Oh dear.

My bathroom looks scary.

Tags: course, pharmacology, physiology, test
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LCR Christmas Fair

Tuesday, November 10th, 2009 by Kiyu

The LCR is the ‘common’ hall at UEA where we have all our concerts, parties and events — as I told you yesterday, there was a christmas fair there today at 10:00-15:00, and I spent my one hour lunch break at 13:00 wandering among the stalls with glittering eyes. I think my pharmacy mates find my easily triggered excitement rather amusing. I was so excited during the fair that Clara suggested I come with her and her boyfriend (who speaks Norwegian fairly well!) to what is rumoured to be the biggest Christmas fair in UK! Wuuhuu!

Anyways, I just wanted to show you my treasures from the LCR Christmas fair:

Chocolate Fudge. A Brit thing! I had to have some and see what the fuzz was all about. It’s alright, I never was a big fan of chocolate so I’m probably not the best to judge. Norfolk is the county I live in by the way (you know, like how Telemark is a county?), which means this is made locally. I dunno why, but I’ve become unusually concerned with local sources and environmental friendly everything. Have I finally gone green?

LIBAO HP shoes. Funky, unique and colourful shoes which are hand painted! I also got another green pair (my favourite) which I’m going to pick up tomorrow morning. They look like this! Now, you might wonder why the hell I didn’t just paint my own shoes, yeah? Thing is, we gotta support the artists, don’t we? Handcrafted arts and crafts are more expensive than mass fabricated ones, but if we stop buying objects made with pure love, the world of creativity and uniqueness would fall apart and I would have been a sad fellow indeed. If I started selling my crafts, I would want people to buy them as well…

The blue fellow you can spot on the bed there is for you, Phuc. His name is Boghog Blu and is a rather happy fellow I adopted from The Jade Tree. He enjoys laughing and cuddling! Remember he’s unique and hand made, there’s no other like him! My contribution for not being there on your birthday!

Tonight is Day Glo Rave party at the LCR, meaning glow sticks, glowing face paint and loads of FUNKY COLOURS! I LOVE COLOURS! Let’s rock those neon colours!

Tags: christmas, fair, fudge, glo, hand, LCR, painted, rave, shoes
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